I apologize for the lack of photos and art. On October 22, 2009 my father-in-law passed away. He was a Vietnam Veteran who basically died because of Agent Orange's effect on his body. He was 65. This loss to my family, in addition to last year's death of my own father, has impacted us a great deal. I am striving to find purpose in my life and fight the depression I've seeped into. I am currently getting help however the rode to recovering from the losses of both of our fathers will take time.

In the mean time, I hope to use photography to provide me an outlet among my journaling and poetry. I welcome any supportive thoughts you have and I hope everybody is doing well in their own lives.

I came up with this quote last week and it truly feels like my reality: "Death does not frighten me, only living on after those loved so dearly pass."

Life is short. People are here and then gone the next. I feel like I've squandered much of my life playing video games, fiddling on the internet and watching tv. I want to do something meaningful with my life and find purpose beyond laziness and lack of luster for life.

Truly as Spock would say, "Live long and prosper".


~LV


Writer's CAFE: [link]

SAVE STARGATE ATLANTIS!!! - [link]
[link]






DONOTPLZ -

Yes PLZ -

b3nwa's feature on his journal of me: [link]

Clubs I'm in:



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Places of Lady Valmar To Check OUT -

My Blog : [link]
My Live Journal Website: [link]
My Facebook: [link]
Fanfiction (Stargate Atlantis mostly): [link]
My Original Fiction: [link]
Yahoo Group for Stargate Atlantis: [link]
Writing.com: [link]

Deviant Clubs -

The Wraith Fan Club: [link]

Stargate Atlantis Club: [link]

The Black Dagger Brotherhood Fan Club: [link]

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- KEY DEVIATIONS -

The Red Outfit (feat. Lady Valmar)
[link]
Scribbles My Cat - [link]
Cg of Me (Original): [link]
Cg of me (Green eyes etc): [link]
Me as a Wraith: [link]
My First Vector Image (Stargate Atlantis Sheppard, Rodney and myself) - [link]
Story of 'O'
[link]



FANFICTION-

Black Dagger Brotherhood Fanfics:

Part 1 - [link]
Part 2 - [link]
Part 3 - [link]


Stargate Atlantis fanfics:

Not Funny - [link]
Bob - The Pet Rock - [link]
Going Commando - (Parts 1-9 links included) [link]


Stamps of Notice -

Half-Life 2 Stamp - [link]
I Love Collide - [link]
... .LV. ... - [link]
Support my fanfiction - [link]
Support Lady Valmar - [link]
I Support Navy Wives - [link]
I Support Military Spouses - [link]


Random Art -

Tropical flower - [link]
Hell Flower - [link]
Dragon (Drazar) - [link]
Demoness (Anime girl) - [link]
Growlanser (pencil) - [link]
Stargate: Atlantis (John Sheppard Eye) - [link]
Is it Daylight? - [link]
HEAVEN - [link]
Heart of Glass - [link]

Resources

Neon Circles Resource: [link]
Texture 11 Stock - [link]
Collar Stock - [link]

Pictures:

Tie Pin Hang - [link]
Want to Kill Something (Picture) - [link]
Grandmother’s Chinese Paintings:
Flowers/Fish - [link]
Peacock - [link]
The Cat - [link]
Younger Self Portrait - [link]
The Most Expensive Painting - [link]
Capital Funk (Maryland/Hawaiian Party) - [link]
Semiscon (Maryland/Double Tenth) - [link]
I write… - [link]
I read so… - [link]
I am a Sanguarian… - [link]
I am into BDSM so… - [link]
I am a military wife so...
[link]
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~fine~

I have removed a few stamps because all people ever do is fav them and never look at my other art so screw it those stamps are gone! I'm sorry if you liked the stamp and wanted to use it but frankly if you can't be bothered to look at my other art and comment then why should I let you use a stamp?

I'm just tired of people faving stamps and there is my photography and cg art...hellos!

If you really want one of the stamps back message me, comment on this and I'll put it on my other art for dark art. Until then there you go.

~LV


Writer's CAFE: [link]

SAVE STARGATE ATLANTIS!!! - [link]
[link]






DONOTPLZ -

Yes PLZ -

b3nwa's feature on his journal of me: [link]

Clubs I'm in:



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Places of Lady Valmar To Check OUT -

My Blog : [link]
My Live Journal Website: [link]
My Facebook: [link]
Fanfiction (Stargate Atlantis mostly): [link]
My Original Fiction: [link]
Yahoo Group for Stargate Atlantis: [link]
Writing.com: [link]

Deviant Clubs -

The Wraith Fan Club: [link]

Stargate Atlantis Club: [link]

The Black Dagger Brotherhood Fan Club: [link]

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- KEY DEVIATIONS -

The Red Outfit (feat. Lady Valmar)
[link]
Scribbles My Cat - [link]
Cg of Me (Original): [link]
Cg of me (Green eyes etc): [link]
Me as a Wraith: [link]
My First Vector Image (Stargate Atlantis Sheppard, Rodney and myself) - [link]
Story of 'O'
[link]



FANFICTION-

Black Dagger Brotherhood Fanfics:

Part 1 - [link]
Part 2 - [link]
Part 3 - [link]


Stargate Atlantis fanfics:

Not Funny - [link]
Bob - The Pet Rock - [link]
Going Commando - (Parts 1-9 links included) [link]


Stamps of Notice -

Half-Life 2 Stamp - [link]
I Love Collide - [link]
... .LV. ... - [link]
Support my fanfiction - [link]
Support Lady Valmar - [link]
I Support Navy Wives - [link]
I Support Military Spouses - [link]


Random Art -

Tropical flower - [link]
Hell Flower - [link]
Dragon (Drazar) - [link]
Demoness (Anime girl) - [link]
Growlanser (pencil) - [link]
Stargate: Atlantis (John Sheppard Eye) - [link]
Is it Daylight? - [link]
HEAVEN - [link]
Heart of Glass - [link]

Resources

Neon Circles Resource: [link]
Texture 11 Stock - [link]
Collar Stock - [link]

Pictures:

Tie Pin Hang - [link]
Want to Kill Something (Picture) - [link]
Grandmother’s Chinese Paintings:
Flowers/Fish - [link]
Peacock - [link]
The Cat - [link]
Younger Self Portrait - [link]
The Most Expensive Painting - [link]
Capital Funk (Maryland/Hawaiian Party) - [link]
Semiscon (Maryland/Double Tenth) - [link]
I write… - [link]
I read so… - [link]
I am a Sanguarian… - [link]
I am into BDSM so… - [link]
I am a military wife so...
[link]
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Well I went to my neighbor's b-day party for her hubbie next store and some crazy stuff went down. Needlessly to say my boundaries were breached with touching. It wasn't anything really bad but still I feel ashamed and disappointed that I allowed myself to let it happen even with alcohol in my system.

You know the funny thing is that me and my husband along with one other guy were the oldest people there. I think the problem is that those people at the party had no control. I at least tried to eat something before drinking and I stuck to my limits (for the most part) and drank lots of water in-between drinks. The whole get drunk thing is not appealing to me. That's for immature teeny boppers. To me I like enjoying a few drinks, yes, getting a little buzzed but doing it rarely and with people who I know are not going to take advantage of me and/or push me to do things just because they think I should. Peer pressure has taken its strike yet again I don't plan on letting it get the best of me next time.

My limit is one drink and only if I've eaten something substantial and to stick by my hubbie's side in a party where I don't know people. That may seem or rather scream "Loner!" but I'm married and if I want to hang out with somebody I'll seek them out and chat so no worries. That way in the future I don't disrespect myself and I don't have to feel bad about stuff that happened to me.


~LV


Writer's CAFE: [link]

SAVE STARGATE ATLANTIS!!! - [link]
[link]






DONOTPLZ -

b3nwa's feature on his journal of me: [link]

Clubs I'm in:



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Places of Lady Valmar To Check OUT -

My Blog : [link]
My Live Journal Website: [link]
My Facebook: [link]
Fanfiction (Stargate Atlantis mostly): [link]
My Original Fiction: [link]
Yahoo Group for Stargate Atlantis: [link]
Writing.com: [link]

Deviant Clubs -

The Wraith Fan Club: [link]

Stargate Atlantis Club: [link]

The Black Dagger Brotherhood Fan Club: [link]

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- KEY DEVIATIONS -

The Red Outfit (feat. Lady Valmar)
[link]
Scribbles My Cat - [link]
Cg of Me (Original): [link]
Cg of me (Green eyes etc): [link]
Me as a Wraith: [link]
My First Vector Image (Stargate Atlantis Sheppard, Rodney and myself) - [link]
Story of 'O'
[link]



FANFICTION-

Black Dagger Brotherhood Fanfics:

Part 1 - [link]
Part 2 - [link]
Part 3 - [link]


Stargate Atlantis fanfics:

Not Funny - [link]
Bob - The Pet Rock - [link]
Going Commando - (Parts 1-9 links included) [link]


Stamps of Notice -

Half-Life 2 Stamp - [link]
I Love Collide - [link]
... .LV. ... - [link]
Support my fanfiction - [link]
Support Lady Valmar - [link]
I Support Navy Wives - [link]
I Support Military Spouses - [link]


Random Art -

Tropical flower - [link]
Hell Flower - [link]
Dragon (Drazar) - [link]
Demoness (Anime girl) - [link]
Growlanser (pencil) - [link]
Stargate: Atlantis (John Sheppard Eye) - [link]
Is it Daylight? - [link]
HEAVEN - [link]
Heart of Glass - [link]

Resources

Neon Circles Resource: [link]
Texture 11 Stock - [link]
Collar Stock - [link]

Pictures:

Tie Pin Hang - [link]
Want to Kill Something (Picture) - [link]
Grandmother’s Chinese Paintings:
Flowers/Fish - [link]
Peacock - [link]
The Cat - [link]
Younger Self Portrait - [link]
The Most Expensive Painting - [link]
Capital Funk (Maryland/Hawaiian Party) - [link]
Semiscon (Maryland/Double Tenth) - [link]
I write… - [link]
I read so… - [link]
I am a Sanguarian… - [link]
I am into BDSM so… - [link]
I am a military wife so...
[link]
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~fine~

Ello!

Its been a wild month with drama, hives, allergies, school related stress and boredom. Just when I thought it was safe to relax I got thrust into a drama central laced situation with a couple separating and my difficulties with my allergies and getting stuck babysitting a two-year-old who...just wears me out. Nothing against the kid, she's sweet, but honestly I don't like anything under the age of 6 because their plain annoying, disgusting, and noisy. I love kids I just don't like really young kids.

I'm still debating on whether I will continue the whole babysitting thing because frankly its just not my thing. I'd be working at the library or even at a dinner rather than watching a kid for almost 8 hours only to get 20 bucks in the end. I think its a toss up right now. I care about the couple and know their having issues but this is just too much for me.

Well aside from my whinning about the babysitting thing lol I'm doing much better than I have in a long time. Me and my husband's relationship is at a high point and it feels good. We still do have squabbles but their just little things and we don't get too invested in arguing about something small.

My cats are doing well. However my one cat managed to somehow squeeze himself out the door before bed one night. I didn't check for him and it doesn't help he's an all black cat. So the next morning around 5:45 am I hear a screechy meow and I wonder what the heck that was. My husband checked and there was Scribbles right outside the window. He was all dirty. So now I finally gave in and put on the reflective collar we got him (it has his information on a gold tag with a gold bell). We call him jiggle boy right now.

I feel bad to make him wear it because I can imagine it can get bothersome for a cat to wear it still I can't have him running out the door. I now have to check every night to make certain he's in and when I open the door I have to be careful. He use to be the type of cat that dashes out the door but I managed to curb that desire. He will still try to get out though as is evident of his late night escape.

I'm just thanking god that he's okay and didn't get run over and that we found him.

I posted a few new pictures/creations in the past week. I plan to post more pictures in the next few days. I'm having a hard time figuring out how to improve my photography because frankly I just do what feels good for my photographs. I'm thinking I might go find a book on photography. I'd really love to take a class but my college courses don't allot for it. I need to take care of the necessary classes first.

I think that is basically all that is going on right now. Hope everybody is doing well as usual and go treat yourself to something nice!


~LV


Writer's CAFE: [link]

SAVE STARGATE ATLANTIS!!! - [link]
[link]






DONOTPLZ -

b3nwa's feature on his journal of me: [link]

Clubs I'm in:



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Places of Lady Valmar To Check OUT -

My Blog : [link]
My Live Journal Website: [link]
My Facebook: [link]
Fanfiction (Stargate Atlantis mostly): [link]
My Original Fiction: [link]
Yahoo Group for Stargate Atlantis: [link]
Writing.com: [link]

Deviant Clubs -

The Wraith Fan Club: [link]

Stargate Atlantis Club: [link]

The Black Dagger Brotherhood Fan Club: [link]

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- KEY DEVIATIONS -

The Red Outfit (feat. Lady Valmar)
[link]
Scribbles My Cat - [link]
Cg of Me (Original): [link]
Cg of me (Green eyes etc): [link]
Me as a Wraith: [link]
My First Vector Image (Stargate Atlantis Sheppard, Rodney and myself) - [link]
Story of 'O'
[link]



FANFICTION-

Black Dagger Brotherhood Fanfics:

Part 1 - [link]
Part 2 - [link]
Part 3 - [link]


Stargate Atlantis fanfics:

Not Funny - [link]
Bob - The Pet Rock - [link]
Going Commando - (Parts 1-9 links included) [link]


Stamps of Notice -

Half-Life 2 Stamp - [link]
I Love Collide - [link]
... .LV. ... - [link]
Support my fanfiction - [link]
Support Lady Valmar - [link]
I Support Navy Wives - [link]
I Support Military Spouses - [link]


Random Art -

Tropical flower - [link]
Hell Flower - [link]
Dragon (Drazar) - [link]
Demoness (Anime girl) - [link]
Growlanser (pencil) - [link]
Stargate: Atlantis (John Sheppard Eye) - [link]
Is it Daylight? - [link]
HEAVEN - [link]
Heart of Glass - [link]

Resources

Neon Circles Resource: [link]
Texture 11 Stock - [link]
Collar Stock - [link]

Pictures:

Tie Pin Hang - [link]
Want to Kill Something (Picture) - [link]
Grandmother’s Chinese Paintings:
Flowers/Fish - [link]
Peacock - [link]
The Cat - [link]
Younger Self Portrait - [link]
The Most Expensive Painting - [link]
Capital Funk (Maryland/Hawaiian Party) - [link]
Semiscon (Maryland/Double Tenth) - [link]
I write… - [link]
I read so… - [link]
I am a Sanguarian… - [link]
I am into BDSM so… - [link]
I am a military wife so...
[link]
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~fine~

It's been a long month. I've finally seen an allergist. I was given nasal spray, an inhaler which I really don't need but it's there if I ever need it. I was also told to take Singulair and once I get the skin test along with a blood test I will be getting Allegra. Oh wonderful! I just love being drugged up on anti-histamin's and the like. Eh anyways...

Finally got my new computer built. There is a few things missing like a better sound card, keyboard, the mouse I want and maybe another video card but all in all I think I did fairly well. I'll try and post some pictures and the specs when I get a chance in the next couple of days. Also I got my game F.E.A.R. 2. Yays!

Hmm...what else? I got a Victoria Secret Pink purse. It's a little small but I had a gift card with $20 bucks on it so that's what I got. I already have enough Lingerie and stuff from VS. It's one of the stores I like and I'm very good at finding sales. I think even if you have enough money to afford VS prices its better to go when there is a sale.

I also got a plushie pillow from Brookstone. I just love it. Hm...got two necklaces from Spencer's.

That's my extent of buying spree. I haven't done it in awhile but now I have to save again. Man that shot of Scotch-Whiskey is giving me a frontal headache. Yikes. I've never tried Scotch-Whiskey before maybe that's why... anyways lol

No I'm not drunk I swear! It was just one shot and after dinner at that. I'm a light weight heh. What couldn't tell by my photos?! lol

Well I have a google profile account now and its official it's easy to find me by typing my pen name 'Lady Valmar' into google's search engine. Whooo-Hoooo!

I don't know how or when exactly I'll make a break in acting or publishing my book but I'm determined and I know people so I hope something good happens. If nothing else I have my hubbie and some nice peeps online to chat with.

Well I'm not really sure why I'm typing any of this but I'd thought I'm over do for an update since I've been on dA a lot and posting photos often.

Hope everybody is doing good and keep healthy!


~LV


Check it out! I posted a short story at Writer's cafe!

Writer's CAFE: [link]

SAVE STARGATE ATLANTIS!!! - [link]
[link]






DONOTPLZ -

b3nwa's feature on his journal of me: [link]

Clubs I'm in:



---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Places of Lady Valmar To Check OUT -

My Blog : [link]
My Live Journal Website: [link]
My Facebook: [link]

Fanfiction (Stargate Atlantis mostly): [link]
My Original Fiction: [link]
Yahoo Group for Stargate Atlantis: [link]
Writing.com: [link]

Deviant Clubs -

The Wraith Fan Club: [link]

Stargate Atlantis Club: [link]

The Black Dagger Brotherhood Fan Club: [link]

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- KEY DEVIATIONS -

The Red Outfit (feat. Lady Valmar)
[link]
Scribbles My Cat - [link]
Cg of Me (Original): [link]
Cg of me (Green eyes etc): [link]
Me as a Wraith: [link]
Me as a Drow (Dark Elf with red eyes): [link]
Me as a Drow (Dark Elf with violet eyes): [link]
My First Vector Image (Stargate Atlantis Sheppard, Rodney and myself) - [link]
Story of 'O'
[link]



FANFICTION-

Black Dagger Brotherhood Fanfics:

Part 1 - [link]
Part 2 - [link]
Part 3 - [link]


Stargate Atlantis fanfics:

Not Funny - [link]
Bob - The Pet Rock - [link]
Going Commando - (Parts 1-9 links included) [link]


Stamps of Notice -

Lover Redeemed (Payne) Stamp - [link]
J.R. Ward Stamp - [link]
Support Black Dagger Brotherhood - [link]
Half-Life 2 Stamp - [link]
I Love Collide - [link]
I Support AFI - [link]
... .LV. ... - [link]
Support my fanfiction - [link]
Support Lady Valmar - [link]
I Support Navy Wives - [link]
I Support Military Spouses - [link]


Random Art -

Hanabi Flowers - [link]
Tropical flower - [link]
Hell Flower - [link]
Dragon (Drazar) - [link]
Demoness (Anime girl) - [link]
Growlanser (pencil) - [link]
Payne drawing - [link]
Stargate: Atlantis (John Sheppard Eye) - [link]
Is it Daylight? - [link]
HEAVEN - [link]
Heart of Glass - [link]

Resources

Delphi Ink – (dA user WP) - [link]
Profound (Sheppard, McKay, Myself wp)
[link]
Recollection wallpaper - [link]
Battle Journey wallpaper - [link]
Neon Circles Resource: [link]
Texture 11 Stock - [link]
Collar Stock - [link]

Pictures:

Tie Pin Hang - [link]
Want to Kill Something (Picture) - [link]
Grandmother’s Chinese Paintings:
Flowers/Fish - [link]
Peacock - [link]
The Cat - [link]
Younger Self Portrait - [link]
The Most Expensive Painting - [link]
Capital Funk (Maryland/Hawaiian Party) - [link]
Semiscon (Maryland/Double Tenth) - [link]
I write… - [link]
I read so… - [link]
I am a Sanguarian… - [link]
I am into BDSM so… - [link]
I am a military wife so...
[link]
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~fine~